So this past weekend and this week have really begun to try my nerves. First of all I spent the weekend with Lauren. My best friend...she hasn't become my best friend until recently. I've known her since the fourth grade when I moved here, but we grew apart and just recently started hanging out during sophmore year of high school(last year). She seems like a replacement best friend, but that's not the case. She's always been a fun, caring, and loyal individual and an AMAZING friend. Unfortunatly I've ignored that and abused it by not being as close a friend to her as I could have, and befriending backstabers and untrustworthy people that don't sincerly care about me.

On Saturday we went to a bonfire at my friend Buddy's house, where the guy that I thought that I'd really, really cared for proceded to completely ignore me, and follow around a girl who I can see nothing special about(can you tell I'm bitter). So that relationship, or what I thought could have been the makings of a relationship is pretty much over. The only problem is I can't stop thinking about him and I wish thinks hadn't of turned out this way. Now I find myself having to watch him everyday interact with this girl, and have my best guy friend(who I trusted with the information that I liked this guy) making comments and talking about him and her being together, which is making it that much harder to forget. I'm not a very open person and when I decide that I like someone I'm very loyal and committed, the only problem is no one feels that way about me and sometimes it gets to me.

On another note yesterday was the first day of Track conditioning and I feel like hell. We ran for what seemed like forever and we did drills, and sprints, and even an exercise where we crawled down the bleachers dragging our bodies, and using only our hands. I fell and I banged up my leg, which now has bruises all over it from the 'bleacher incident'. The only happy thing that happened in the past five days was that Track practice was canceled today because of a tornado watch. If anyone that reads this has some thoughts please contribute and leave me a comment. Thanks.

See you soon,
~*Soleil*~